i still dont understand

aku tgk tgk pic comment yg laki tak gune tuh anta ttg aku.hurm,aku tak phm.knp?knp?sblm nie die ok jer.knp setan sgt betine sundal tuh lenyapkan Teddy aku&ubah die menjadi seorang yg tak gune.bkn makin baik tp makin sakai je aku tgk.aku tak phm?selame nie tak cukup ke sokongan moral aku utk die?kate sundal tuh pakai tudung,alim sgt.tp knp die tergamak buat org lain tersungkur jatuh?ayat ayat die,kate kate die,msg msg die yg sblm nie sungguh indah.sungguh jujur.sungguh bermakne.honestly,aku pecaye&sgt sgt pecaye yg die berubah krn sundal tuh.dingin sgt.bkn berubah jd lbh baik pun.


mmg tak dinafikan aku maseh nk Teddy aku balik..tp bkn kat laki jahanam yg bertopengkan Teddy aku.serious shit lah aku tak phm btl.knp?aku asyik tny soalan yg same je.. aku tak kecewe,aku tak sedeh cume terkilan.knp melayu mudah lupe? betine sundal tuh nak sgt kat si Abdul Hafiz tuh kan?heyh,g lah amek! just jgn ragut Teddy aku dri aku lah sundal! Teddy aku dah 100% lenyap.hurm,i'm trying to be really really strong.but i'm not sure how long i can keep this up. yea,mmg aku byk wat slh kat jantan tuh. tp atleast aku setie. tuh pun slh satu dri silap aku gak. apesal lah aku bodoh sgt g pecaye kat jantan cam die. semue drama die,semue lakonan&penipuan die.selame tuh aku wat bodoh jerr.aku tak penah byk soal. whats fucking wrong with me??


kalu org yg kenal aku bace ney,mesti tertny tny knp aku still nk tulis & luahkan perasaan aku ttg jantan tuh.hurm,tah lah weh. aku pun tak taw. ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY. and only God can help me.


mmg aku lege die dah takde utk kongkong aku.. tp aku rase lain sgt. aku nk buat ape ape aku rase ragu ragu sket.. mane Teddy utk kongkong aku?utk bg taw aku mane btl mane tak.Teddy dah takde utk buat perangai anoyying kat aku. knp aku bodoh sgt still memikirkan ttg lelaki yg dah tpu aku,dah mrh mrh kat aku,yg dah tak suke kat aku?knp? Ya Allah tlg lah aku..


and now i'm sitting here&typing this freaking blog while my tears running down.. still searching for the perfect one. thanks lah dude!you've made it!you've broke my heart! like you said that you wouldnt,but shit lah you did! thanks alot. you really gave a deep impact in my life.
so thanks.


p/s:since you left me,i've pierced my left ear two times so far&gonna pierce more:) and for your infomation,i like my hair coloured lah bodoh!

to Teddy: i love you&still trying to forget you&those sweet memories you gave me.
to the jantan jahanam yg bertopengkan Teddy aku:g mampos lah kaw dgn SUEharto endon kaw tuh.

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